Friday, December 18, 2015

A Selfless Tale

I was one of your forever cup of tea.

I sort of struck in conversations with many people. People are kind. People are special. I just like them for being whoever they are. Their sparkles and flaws, dreams and failures, donkeys and unicorns. 

I was one of your forever cup of tea.

If they started to talk and make jokes about another people, I'd like to giggle around and turn myself into a honest bitch. Though, in fact, I really don't have anything to do except talking about it, too. This mostly happen in fancy cages so that I'd rather to enjoy fancy food and praise its goodness than flunking the hot conversations. Gratefully, I was born as a good eater. I have big appetite like in every hours so I can eat whatever and whenever I want and still like it tho it might taste like crap --- and skip the conversations for a while.

I was one of your forever cup of tea.

If they started to talk about family, I'd blabber about mine, too. Tho I have such no great or complex family issues. So I guess mine is quite boring. Story of a kid who was born and raised with sincerity. With a Father who is very open-minded and have no big ambitions for his daughters. I guess his very sincere ambition is just: "be yourself and reach your dream, kid, cuz I believe you can do it in your very own way. I don't mind to spend mine for your wealthy needs and craps, as long as it's worth spending." And with a conventionalist Mother who drags her kids to Sunday Morning Church and have her morning prayer routines with her daughters photos tucked in zamrud Rosary beads. There’s nothing grand nor significant.

I was one of your forever cup of tea.

If they started to talk about their ambitions and achievements, I'd congratulated them and asked them how is going and what's next. I don't have any specialities compared to them, except my ability to be diligent af. I used to be praised in front of many people because of my highest scores amongst all, also dumped in the deepest crump with all of rejections and failures. I thought it was all okay. By any chance, I have those balance dynamic of prestigious and dumpy sides. What a wise!

I was one of your forever cup of tea.

If they grabbed me to do the fun thing in the club, I'd love to! But I'd only dance with the song that I like, with tiny-sized liquors, and no cigars. Because I don't smoke. I smoke the aired melodies. And when I found out that it was boring or they rarely play my favorite song, I'd have a seat and read my handy e-book. I am freak, I know. I really am.

I was one of your forever cup of tea.

If they laughed at a person who do things all alone and assumed it as stupid lonely thing, I don't have any business to debate them and tragically, I'd still love them. What matters to me is the lonely-person itself and what kind of beautiful campaign that I can do to raise and save that lonely person. I'm not trying to romantizing. The objective is simple: loneliness is in everybody's (don't you find it in your own flesh or crashed soul?). I've helped myself in many ways that no other people can do it for me. People need to embrace and celebrate the solitude; it is a virtue.


.....converting my your-forever-cup-of-tea default setting

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